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Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day Three- A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person?
Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Day Eight- Your workout routine.
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?
if i get motivated i can be everything i want to be.
i realized that when i exercise and eat right, motivation in all other parts of my life just kind of fall into place. i have a paper due in 21 hours that i have barely started. i have a test in the morning. i have a cappella rehearsal tonight. i’m going home tomorrow night. i need to get active, in more areas than just tv and goofily socializing. it’s time for me to get on the right track.
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okay, i’m really happy and also really sad that i decided to finally tell you the truth. i am missing you terribly already but when i think of how much better than this an ideal relationship could be (honestly, for not just me but you too, as much as i hate to admit it) i am forced to believe that someone else is out there for you. i’m beginning to have less and less faith that i’m actually even gonna meet ANYONE in college. is it bad that i’m thinking the only way to get anyone here to hook up with me is at/ after a dance and only if i’ve lost like 30 pounds? why is it that people here ONLY want to hook up? what about dating people in college? should have looked into the dating scene here before committing. oh well. maybe i actually will try to lose the weight? exercising so much the past few days has felt AMAZING. i hope to keep it up, and for real. i wanna feel healthier. i shouldn’t eat as much as i do. the candy kills me. maybe i’ll try a “one serving” limits system or something. we’ll see…waiting for happiness. i hate this month.
i just want a little bit of something that can always make me happy. food doesn’t work once i get full or feel fat. sex hurts after a while. alcohol depresses me and makes me lovesick. my man friend makes me feel like shit all the time. all the things that i should try? like working out? too lazy. too depressed. i really need to get my endorphins pumping again. i like that i have a best friend here (haha i just typed brest,) but it’s getting a little sad that there are NO boys who i even mildly like at all. no one. i feel like i’m totally lying to alex about everything because i have no faith in him. i don’t know why i’m jealous if he sucks so much. i really want to transfer so i can see my family like every other day. i can’t fucking transfer, do you know how hard i worked to get here? how impossible it’d be to make new friends as a transfer student??!? i just want to not miss the last few years of my dad’s life. is that so much to ask? also, they need to fucking tell us which pill was the placebo. it’s not fucking fair if it’s gonna work that he’s gonna die and the others will live. ok i can’t talk about this right now or i won’t be able to sleep. i want to start exercising. really bad. and i need to start doing reading for my classes. much better. it’s making me sad that i can’t talk much in class anymre because i’m always unprepared. i’m starting to feel stupid again like i felt in high school. i miss my family. i miss being dependent on my family all the time? am i a puppy or something? ah i miss willy. i miss friends who i KNOW in and out. i’m afraid i won’t evr grow to like more than like 2 people here wholeheartedly. should i branch out? how do i branch out? i fucking need to go talk to the therapist. but first nap. then go to the gym. fuck priorities. can’t believe someone ate my cheese and the heat is on. too hot, too little cheese. hate the fact that today is october 27th. wow, fuck. fuck fuck fuck. fuck. love you, dad. love you mom and kelsey. love you willy. love you red balloon. good night candle. good night light. good night stars. good night moon. see you tomorrow.
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drove to my sister’s house, did dishes and watched tv with her cat. drove home, where i proceeded to make instant pudding and contemplate bringing it over to some kid’s house. gave up because it was brown, went upstairs and watched “no strings attached.” thought about my love life and how it’s like that except with the beginning happy and the end not so much. fantasized about some kid and how we could literally be the best movie in the entire fucking world. listening to ray charles and reading a girly novel now. i’m pathetic but i need to tell someone, so hi tumblr.
TV Shows Challenge | 10 TV shows you love the most: Friends
“I’ll be there for you, ‘cause you’re there for me too.”
watching this right now…and always